I slept 10 hours last night! I don’t remember the last time I did that. I was crying before I fell asleep and I woke up with a lot of negative thoughts in my head. Did I make the right decision? I thought. Do I want too much from the world? Perhaps I should just settle. Stop being so damn difficult! And I was missing my youngest son. Replaying the past 2 years in my head and blaming myself for everything. I was spiraling down and the suicidal ideation began to rear its ugly head.
THEN as I began contemplating getting ready to start my day my friend’s mom messaged me. She was extremely nervous about her Ayahuasca ceremony today. When we finished messaging she said, -You are like me angel-. 5 minutes later my friend called me. We talked about his mom. Her worries and her path. We talked about his alcoholism. I was happy he was addressing it. We talked about the universe and my path. It was the exact uplift I needed.
I feel back on track and ready to take on the world. I am leaning more and more towards going to my sister’s for a bit and popping down to Mexico for a week or two to do some plant medicine work. #trusttheuniverse and take action too!